Geek Rock

You know how difficult it is to think about yourselves and find your problems.

I am not talking about

“I hate my hair”

“My legs are like think bamboo poles” or whatever

I am talking about personality traits that will be with you forever and make you.

Like with me for example I understand that I am very judgmental. I know that this annoys quite a lot of people especially when I am vocal about my issues.

The thing is I am better off. I know this.

I tried to explain to Tamlin. I told her I was sorry but I was a very judgemental person and that that is the way I am and she mustn’t be offended by every opinion that I voice. And do you know what she says?

“Uh HUH! You don’t say?” She says it like she had had that conclusion the whole time.

But the problem that I have with this is I can deal with everyone saying that I am judgemental but when Tamlin says it, it makes it true and she makes it a bad thing. Like she doesn’t understand how hard it is to come to those conclusions.

Today we were playing soccer for (overly stereo-typical) England Day. I wasn’t even goalie! I was attacker and I would just charge at the person until the forfeit the ball. We played 3 different games so you can imagine my pale skin was BRIGHT RED after the games. Just about everyone thought that for my sake they should mention this fact. Juuuuuust in case I didn’t know already.

I go to Tamlin and say

“Wow I can feel how red my face is!”

And what does she say?

“YA! I don’t think it’s ever been this red!”

Like it wasn’t hard to say that and to be confident in spite of the fact your face resembles a tomato. 

And then guess what? She gets angry with ME!

The way I deal with these situations is by being very honest with the person. I will tell them exactly what I am thinking. I told Tamlin that it didn’t matter what anyone else says its her opinion that matters to me.

She went on to the bus. I wouldn’t say that we’re fighting. But I don’t know anymore.

By the way HAPPY HUNDREDTH BLOG POST!!!!